Sunday, April 27, 2014


Wow its been a year since I've been on here. Let's see what to update. I have a new job in Va and I also have a boyfriend. He's amazing and I'm happy so that's a plus!

I've been watching Once Upon a Time and I'm loving it. I love Regina and Robin Hood. They make me smile. Kind of like Charming and myself. Yes I call my boyfriend Charming because that's how he is. CHARMING!! I usually consider myself as Regina because of everything that she went through and that's what made her "evil" but when she was with Daniel she had so much joy and love, but when he died her joy and love disappeared. When Robin Hood came into the picture she was given a second chance. And that's when her love came back. I love their chemistry and how they mix well. I understand how Regina felt when Daniel died and how she felt lost and alone. Now you can see she feels joy and love for Robin Hood. That's how I feel about Charming.

Charming has changed me completely about love. He has seen the crazy, happy, annoying, and excitement side of me. He hasn't seen me cry or too upset yet, but I'm sure that will come. Charming is my Robin Hood to Regina.

Life has changed completely for me. I'm still writing my poems and stories, but what really matters is the love I have for Charming. Well, I must go and get ready for my crazy day tomorrow...Its nice to be back...this is one of the things I did miss. Writing just to write...I guess that's what happens when you're working all the time and have no idea how to work with my writing.

Anyways, good night and hope to write soon.

Saturday, January 12, 2013


Apparently people are worried about me. I don't know why exactly...wait a second. I do. When a boy broke me into pieces and they don't think I can bring myself back up...or I'm too much into the "world" and following into others footsteps.

Here's the thing; the boy that broke me, is a great friend. We made not act like friends, but we are friends and he respects my opinion as much as I respect his. We are friends and he is happy that is all I wanted for him. That's important to me.

As people think I'm not following the right crowd, they need to get over it. Because maybe I'm an example for them. I may not be a the best Child of God but I'm sure as hell that I have people that respect me and don't care what I believe in.

Why worry about someone when you don't want to be one on one with someone to talk? Don't get me wrong, but I'll think its suspicious when people want to hang out with me one on one unless we've done it before. But if you're so worried please send me a note or something saying it and wanting to know what's up. Or just come out and ask the question that you're dying to know.

This is life, I'm not the prettiest girl in the world, but I'm worth the risk to take out or be a friend to. I don't want family members on their tiptoes around me. Granted I am tired of the bull that they give me, but this is LIFE!!! I'm trying to take my own advice and I myself need to GET OVER IT!!! Life is short and I may be wasting it just by writing this. So I'll end with this. Take the risk in asking the question that's on your bloody mind and take the risk of me giving you a straight answer or wait til I'm ready to tell you what's going on.

Monday, October 1, 2012


So here I am in Epcot with a friend of mine and I'm still debating on staying here or not. It kills me inside cause I can't decide. I love my mom and I don't want to leave her in Va because of the craziness that's going on. I keep her sanity at least that's what I think I do. I also think that I'm a bourdon on her.

Don't get me wrong I know she loves me and everything but I never know if I'm doing the right's hard and I'm not the brightest crayon in the box... I don't know. I have my own demons to take care of...and it's dangerous.

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Rocky Horror Picture Show at the Firehouse Theatre Project

I usually don't do reviews or anything like that because I am very biased, but....This show is amazing!!! The cast is amazing and meshed with the band it completly blows you away. If you don't go see the show then its you're loss, because when you see a 6'3" man in heels to make him 6'6"...that takes skills!! I have a lot of friends in this show and I am a friend of the director's and the music director's so this tells you that I am biased on the show because of these brilant minds in it. This cast right here is worth every piece of your money that's in your pocket or wallet to see.

Nick Aliff (Riff Raff), Matt Beyer (Eddie/Dr. Scott), Michael Hawke (The Narrator), Chris Hester (Rocky Horror), Maggie Horan (Columbia), Joy Newsome (Magenta), Nick Shackleford (Brad), Terence Sullivan (Frank N. Furter), Aly Wepplo (Janet).Katie Ford, Alex Gerber, Mauricio Marc├ęs, Sasha Wakefield, Joe Winters, Katherine Wright.

As Jase Smith's vision of this show has completely come to life with these actors...but it doesn't fullfil until Leilani Giles puts her magic touch to the music aspects of it all with her three main men on the scene really making her job seem so easy, Bentley Cobb on the drums, Dane Magoon on the bass, and Grant Oliver on the guitar. As the lyrics and music come along Maggie Marlin never disapoints with her choroagraphy. Once David A McLain come into the idea as the lights and set comepletely blows you away. Then you can't go wrong having Sharon Gregory as the Stage Manager who keeps everything in check.

Granted this might be the weirdest thing that you ever read but I will tell you this if you don't see this show you will regret it and I won't lie to you when it comes to this show. Jase Smith has created something that no one in Richmond would have ever imagined.

 Get your tickets now!! I promise you won't regret it--Just remember its for Mature Audiences don't I say I didn't worn you or say that I said its a kid show cause its not.

Monday, July 16, 2012

I hate myself

Reason why? Well I love too much and everybody knows this. So the ones I love know that I'll drop everything that I'm doing and go help or get something for them...the problem is I hate that I do this and then beat the crap out of myself because I get walked all over with it. I'm so...aggravated with myself because I'll do anything and they won't do shit! So I guess I'm the idiot and get walked over because that's who I am and it won't's sad...I'm sad...

Friday, July 13, 2012


Ok I know when a family member is in trouble we step up to the plate and help them out with whatever it is. Well, this family, my family I too giving. I love my family don't get me wrong but I can't respect anyone who says that they are going to pay you back and then don't because they go on a camping trip.
I'm sorry but this needs to stop... Some people don't have enough money to give to the family to help them out-especially when they have enough money to go on family trips themselves. It pisses me off!! No one should be asking my mom my aunts or my grandma for money. If you're already working hard and spending your money correctly and then get stuck ask--but if I find out and say you're going to pay them back and don't. Don't you dare come crawling to them and ask cause I'll step in and say HELL NO!! Get your ass together and think about what you're doing with your money!

Sorry that's what needed to be said where my family won't actually read it. Thank you for either ignoring this or whatever you do when you read this random blog.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Hate this feeling

I hate not knowing what he's thinking. He hasn't talked to me or anything...he makes me nervous and I think I've pushed him too far. My emotions have been in roller coaster mode and I hate it. I want him and I told I lost him. I hate this feeling of being scared of what he's thinking. I deserve his silence and I deserve this feeling, but I deserve to be able to move on...sadly I have a feeling I won't be able to. Again I hate this feeling.