Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Friend or foe? Or false friend all together?

Why am I writing about friends? Well for one thing I do have a lot of friends and some I consider family. But when it comes to my amazing husband I wonder if he chose his friends. We both have a giving heart and willing to give our shirts to anyone who actually needs it. We will do anything for a friend, but do we see the abuse or the actual real friendship going nowhere? 
We invited our friends and family to the wedding to show our love to each other and to have our friends come and see our commintment to one another. Most of my friends couldn't make it because of ablugations that couldn't be helped and I understood. But when his one friend says that he has the flu and then turns around and does something else...that pisses me off. My husband did a lot of things for him and now he's treating him like dirt. I'm not a happy camper. They can still be friends but my husband isn't going to be a whipping boy for him. That's what their friendship was and I'm sorry but I hope that my friends and new people will come into my husbands life to show that you don't have to do stuff for one another (mostly on one sided friendship) just to be friends. 
I'm proud of my husband and if anything happens to him I will seriously hurt whoever hurts him. That's a promise I will keep. 

Thursday, February 12, 2015


For the most part it's been ok. But when you have your nephew walking down the aisle in a month and he decides to shave half his head there's a problem! 
And the number one thing is don't piss off the bride! I don't want to be a bridezilla but if I have to be because it's "mine and Charmings wedding" I will be. The one freaking thing is to screw up his hair. He couldn't wait until after March no...he had to do it before when it's freezing cold outside at his college!! 

Mind you I support most if not all his decisions. Sometimes you have to think about others then yourself especially when it has to do with a wedding or special day like a wedding. He knows me well enough that I don't play games and I'll tell you right now he's not going to look like that at my wedding. If he is...I'm calling my cousin. 

I love my nephew dearly but he can be the most dumbest smart person ever! Just like his mom...not gonna lie. She is a genius but dumb at the same time. 

An insight of why he's walking me down instead of my dad. My dad passed away about 5 years ago and I have always wanted him to walk me down the ailse. Sadly he can't so I asked my nephew. Thinking that our wedding would be small. Yeah that's what I get for thinking, but nunthe less my nephew is/might be walking me down the ailse. 

Remember people don't piss off the bride. She does get pissy! That is your warning and final warning at that 

Friday, February 6, 2015

Random title

So I know I haven't been writing as much as I used to, but life has taken over and wedding plans are being made. Charming is my inspiration to write and just for me to be myself. Charming is the man I want to be with for the rest of my life and he wants me. I just never thought someone would want me. I was wrong. He wants me. So I'm happy to say I'll be Mrs. Charming before I know it. And I'm excited to be with him. 

That is all. Thank you....I love you Charming!!!

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Well well well

Another year has gone by and I haven't posted since. Why? I've actually have been busy. Scary hug? I would usually write something on here but my life is changing. In a good way. I'm in love with an amazing man who wants to marry me! Yay! He completes me in ways that I never though I needed. He loves me for me. He knows about my past and STILL loves me. I wouldn't know what to do if I didn't have Charming in my life. Yea through out these post of him. His name is Charming because I don't know who actually reads this. Could be someone who I don't have in my life anymore or someone who wants to break my Charming and me up. I'll tell you this though...I am happy. I am blessed. God has given me someone to love and be me with. I don't have to be afraid that he'll leave me because I know he won't. My Charming is everything that I've dreamed about. 

I am blessed beyond measures. Thank you Lord for all you have given me. 

Sunday, April 27, 2014


Wow its been a year since I've been on here. Let's see what to update. I have a new job in Va and I also have a boyfriend. He's amazing and I'm happy so that's a plus!

I've been watching Once Upon a Time and I'm loving it. I love Regina and Robin Hood. They make me smile. Kind of like Charming and myself. Yes I call my boyfriend Charming because that's how he is. CHARMING!! I usually consider myself as Regina because of everything that she went through and that's what made her "evil" but when she was with Daniel she had so much joy and love, but when he died her joy and love disappeared. When Robin Hood came into the picture she was given a second chance. And that's when her love came back. I love their chemistry and how they mix well. I understand how Regina felt when Daniel died and how she felt lost and alone. Now you can see she feels joy and love for Robin Hood. That's how I feel about Charming.

Charming has changed me completely about love. He has seen the crazy, happy, annoying, and excitement side of me. He hasn't seen me cry or too upset yet, but I'm sure that will come. Charming is my Robin Hood to Regina.

Life has changed completely for me. I'm still writing my poems and stories, but what really matters is the love I have for Charming. Well, I must go and get ready for my crazy day tomorrow...Its nice to be back...this is one of the things I did miss. Writing just to write...I guess that's what happens when you're working all the time and have no idea how to work with my writing.

Anyways, good night and hope to write soon.

Saturday, January 12, 2013


Apparently people are worried about me. I don't know why exactly...wait a second. I do. When a boy broke me into pieces and they don't think I can bring myself back up...or I'm too much into the "world" and following into others footsteps.

Here's the thing; the boy that broke me, is a great friend. We made not act like friends, but we are friends and he respects my opinion as much as I respect his. We are friends and he is happy that is all I wanted for him. That's important to me.

As people think I'm not following the right crowd, they need to get over it. Because maybe I'm an example for them. I may not be a the best Child of God but I'm sure as hell that I have people that respect me and don't care what I believe in.

Why worry about someone when you don't want to be one on one with someone to talk? Don't get me wrong, but I'll think its suspicious when people want to hang out with me one on one unless we've done it before. But if you're so worried please send me a note or something saying it and wanting to know what's up. Or just come out and ask the question that you're dying to know.

This is life, I'm not the prettiest girl in the world, but I'm worth the risk to take out or be a friend to. I don't want family members on their tiptoes around me. Granted I am tired of the bull that they give me, but this is LIFE!!! I'm trying to take my own advice and I myself need to GET OVER IT!!! Life is short and I may be wasting it just by writing this. So I'll end with this. Take the risk in asking the question that's on your bloody mind and take the risk of me giving you a straight answer or wait til I'm ready to tell you what's going on.

Monday, October 1, 2012


So here I am in Epcot with a friend of mine and I'm still debating on staying here or not. It kills me inside cause I can't decide. I love my mom and I don't want to leave her in Va because of the craziness that's going on. I keep her sanity at least that's what I think I do. I also think that I'm a bourdon on her.

Don't get me wrong I know she loves me and everything but I never know if I'm doing the right thing...it's hard and I'm not the brightest crayon in the box... I don't know. I have my own demons to take care of...and it's dangerous.