tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-90226110918048363882024-03-27T02:36:10.787-04:00Let Me Tell You Something....The Randomness of the Things I Write. Travels? Maybe. Life? Maybe... but I will tell you the truth, when it comes down to itWicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.comBlogger108125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-33308357430971733152023-07-29T19:16:00.001-04:002023-07-29T19:16:46.917-04:00WOW! Who knew!?!<p> Who knew this was still up?! I didn't! That's kind of funny. Also so much stuff has happened. </p><p><br /></p><p>One thing for sure if life is crazy and I'm hoping that my book will be out soon and it'll be awesome! Hope all is well in your world. Just remember to smile!</p>Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-39088633854226975262015-03-31T08:29:00.001-04:002015-03-31T08:29:38.029-04:00Friend or foe? Or false friend all together?Why am I writing about friends? Well for one thing I do have a lot of friends and some I consider family. But when it comes to my amazing husband I wonder if he chose his friends. We both have a giving heart and willing to give our shirts to anyone who actually needs it. We will do anything for a friend, but do we see the abuse or the actual real friendship going nowhere? <div>We invited our friends and family to the wedding to show our love to each other and to have our friends come and see our commintment to one another. Most of my friends couldn't make it because of ablugations that couldn't be helped and I understood. But when his one friend says that he has the flu and then turns around and does something else...that pisses me off. My husband did a lot of things for him and now he's treating him like dirt. I'm not a happy camper. They can still be friends but my husband isn't going to be a whipping boy for him. That's what their friendship was and I'm sorry but I hope that my friends and new people will come into my husbands life to show that you don't have to do stuff for one another (mostly on one sided friendship) just to be friends. </div><div>I'm proud of my husband and if anything happens to him I will seriously hurt whoever hurts him. That's a promise I will keep. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-8876086383332237892015-02-12T15:33:00.001-05:002015-02-12T15:33:55.587-05:00Wedding...For the most part it's been ok. But when you have your nephew walking down the aisle in a month and he decides to shave half his head there's a problem! <div>And the number one thing is don't piss off the bride! I don't want to be a bridezilla but if I have to be because it's "mine and Charmings wedding" I will be. The one freaking thing is to screw up his hair. He couldn't wait until after March no...he had to do it before when it's freezing cold outside at his college!! </div><div><br></div><div>Mind you I support most if not all his decisions. Sometimes you have to think about others then yourself especially when it has to do with a wedding or special day like a wedding. He knows me well enough that I don't play games and I'll tell you right now he's not going to look like that at my wedding. If he is...I'm calling my cousin. </div><div><br></div><div>I love my nephew dearly but he can be the most dumbest smart person ever! Just like his mom...not gonna lie. She is a genius but dumb at the same time. </div><div><br></div><div>An insight of why he's walking me down instead of my dad. My dad passed away about 5 years ago and I have always wanted him to walk me down the ailse. Sadly he can't so I asked my nephew. Thinking that our wedding would be small. Yeah that's what I get for thinking, but nunthe less my nephew is/might be walking me down the ailse. </div><div><br></div><div>Remember people don't piss off the bride. She does get pissy! That is your warning and final warning at that </div>Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-4102449024085646602015-02-06T23:42:00.001-05:002015-02-06T23:42:59.231-05:00Random titleSo I know I haven't been writing as much as I used to, but life has taken over and wedding plans are being made. Charming is my inspiration to write and just for me to be myself. Charming is the man I want to be with for the rest of my life and he wants me. I just never thought someone would want me. I was wrong. He wants me. So I'm happy to say I'll be Mrs. Charming before I know it. And I'm excited to be with him. <div><br></div><div>That is all. Thank you....I love you Charming!!!</div>Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-53929962179157450902015-02-04T22:23:00.001-05:002015-02-04T22:23:29.413-05:00Well well wellAnother year has gone by and I haven't posted since. Why? I've actually have been busy. Scary hug? I would usually write something on here but my life is changing. In a good way. I'm in love with an amazing man who wants to marry me! Yay! He completes me in ways that I never though I needed. He loves me for me. He knows about my past and STILL loves me. I wouldn't know what to do if I didn't have Charming in my life. Yea through out these post of him. His name is Charming because I don't know who actually reads this. Could be someone who I don't have in my life anymore or someone who wants to break my Charming and me up. I'll tell you this though...I am happy. I am blessed. God has given me someone to love and be me with. I don't have to be afraid that he'll leave me because I know he won't. My Charming is everything that I've dreamed about. <div><br></div><div>I am blessed beyond measures. Thank you Lord for all you have given me. </div>Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-16245048580883026232014-04-27T22:46:00.001-04:002014-04-27T22:46:10.041-04:00HELLO! Wow its been a year since I've been on here. Let's see what to update. I have a new job in Va and I also have a boyfriend. He's amazing and I'm happy so that's a plus!<br />
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I've been watching Once Upon a Time and I'm loving it. I love Regina and Robin Hood. They make me smile. Kind of like Charming and myself. Yes I call my boyfriend Charming because that's how he is. CHARMING!! I usually consider myself as Regina because of everything that she went through and that's what made her "evil" but when she was with Daniel she had so much joy and love, but when he died her joy and love disappeared. When Robin Hood came into the picture she was given a second chance. And that's when her love came back. I love their chemistry and how they mix well. I understand how Regina felt when Daniel died and how she felt lost and alone. Now you can see she feels joy and love for Robin Hood. That's how I feel about Charming.<br />
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Charming has changed me completely about love. He has seen the crazy, happy, annoying, and excitement side of me. He hasn't seen me cry or too upset yet, but I'm sure that will come. Charming is my Robin Hood to Regina.<br />
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Life has changed completely for me. I'm still writing my poems and stories, but what really matters is the love I have for Charming. Well, I must go and get ready for my crazy day tomorrow...Its nice to be back...this is one of the things I did miss. Writing just to write...I guess that's what happens when you're working all the time and have no idea how to work with my writing.<br />
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Anyways, good night and hope to write soon.<br />
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Here's the thing; the boy that broke me, is a great friend. We made not act like friends, but we are friends and he respects my opinion as much as I respect his. We are friends and he is happy that is all I wanted for him. That's important to me.<br />
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As people think I'm not following the right crowd, they need to get over it. Because maybe I'm an example for them. I may not be a the best Child of God but I'm sure as hell that I have people that respect me and don't care what I believe in.<br />
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Why worry about someone when you don't want to be one on one with someone to talk? Don't get me wrong, but I'll think its suspicious when people want to hang out with me one on one unless we've done it before. But if you're so worried please send me a note or something saying it and wanting to know what's up. Or just come out and ask the question that you're dying to know.<br />
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This is life, I'm not the prettiest girl in the world, but I'm worth the risk to take out or be a friend to. I don't want family members on their tiptoes around me. Granted I am tired of the bull that they give me, but this is LIFE!!! I'm trying to take my own advice and I myself need to GET OVER IT!!! Life is short and I may be wasting it just by writing this. So I'll end with this. Take the risk in asking the question that's on your bloody mind and take the risk of me giving you a straight answer or wait til I'm ready to tell you what's going on.Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-31022358555282549642012-10-01T20:28:00.001-04:002012-10-01T20:28:39.022-04:00DisneySo here I am in Epcot with a friend of mine and I'm still debating on staying here or not. It kills me inside cause I can't decide. I love my mom and I don't want to leave her in Va because of the craziness that's going on. I keep her sanity at least that's what I think I do. I also think that I'm a bourdon on her. <br />
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Don't get me wrong I know she loves me and everything but I never know if I'm doing the right thing...it's hard and I'm not the brightest crayon in the box... I don't know. I have my own demons to take care of...and it's dangerous. Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-76192006333716619642012-07-22T22:02:00.000-04:002014-04-27T22:46:59.106-04:00Rocky Horror Picture Show at the Firehouse Theatre Project<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I usually don't do reviews or anything like that because I am very biased, but....This show is amazing!!! The cast is amazing and meshed with the band it completly blows you away. If you don't go see the show then its you're loss, because when you see a 6'3" man in heels to make him 6'6"...that takes skills!! I have a lot of friends in this show and I am a friend of the director's and the music director's so this tells you that I am biased on the show because of these brilant minds in it. This cast right here is worth every piece of your money that's in your pocket or wallet to see. <br />
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Nick Aliff (Riff Raff), Matt Beyer (Eddie/Dr. Scott), Michael Hawke (The Narrator), Chris Hester (Rocky Horror), Maggie Horan (Columbia), Joy Newsome (Magenta), Nick Shackleford (Brad), Terence Sullivan (Frank N. Furter), Aly Wepplo (Janet).Katie Ford, Alex Gerber, Mauricio Marcés, Sasha Wakefield, Joe Winters, Katherine Wright.<br />
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As Jase Smith's vision of this show has completely come to life with these actors...but it doesn't fullfil until Leilani Giles puts her magic touch to the music aspects of it all with her three main men on the scene really making her job seem so easy, Bentley Cobb on the drums, Dane Magoon on the bass, and Grant Oliver on the guitar. As the lyrics and music come along Maggie Marlin never disapoints with her choroagraphy. Once David A McLain come into the idea as the lights and set comepletely blows you away. Then you can't go wrong having Sharon Gregory as the Stage Manager who keeps everything in check. <br />
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Granted this might be the weirdest thing that you ever read but I will tell you this if you don't see this show you will regret it and I won't lie to you when it comes to this show. Jase Smith has created something that no one in Richmond would have ever imagined.<br />
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<a a="" href="http://www.firehousetheatre.org/"> Get your tickets now!! </a>I promise you won't regret it--Just remember its for Mature Audiences don't I say I didn't worn you or say that I said its a kid show cause its not.Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-10307555204402461492012-07-16T00:40:00.001-04:002012-07-16T00:40:34.322-04:00I hate myselfReason why? Well I love too much and everybody knows this. So the ones I love know that I'll drop everything that I'm doing and go help or get something for them...the problem is I hate that I do this and then beat the crap out of myself because I get walked all over with it. I'm so...aggravated with myself because I'll do anything and they won't do shit! So I guess I'm the idiot and get walked over because that's who I am and it won't stop...it's sad...I'm sad...Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-82321469239945882992012-07-13T23:33:00.001-04:002012-07-13T23:33:01.193-04:00MoneyOk I know when a family member is in trouble we step up to the plate and help them out with whatever it is. Well, this family, my family I too giving. I love my family don't get me wrong but I can't respect anyone who says that they are going to pay you back and then don't because they go on a camping trip. <br />
I'm sorry but this needs to stop... Some people don't have enough money to give to the family to help them out-especially when they have enough money to go on family trips themselves. It pisses me off!! No one should be asking my mom my aunts or my grandma for money. If you're already working hard and spending your money correctly and then get stuck ask--but if I find out and say you're going to pay them back and don't. Don't you dare come crawling to them and ask cause I'll step in and say HELL NO!! Get your ass together and think about what you're doing with your money! <br />
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Sorry that's what needed to be said where my family won't actually read it. Thank you for either ignoring this or whatever you do when you read this random blog. Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-38671333506225822572012-07-10T23:47:00.001-04:002012-07-10T23:47:20.657-04:00Hate this feelingI hate not knowing what he's thinking. He hasn't talked to me or anything...he makes me nervous and I think I've pushed him too far. My emotions have been in roller coaster mode and I hate it. I want him and I told him....so I lost him. I hate this feeling of being scared of what he's thinking. I deserve his silence and I deserve this feeling, but I deserve to be able to move on...sadly I have a feeling I won't be able to. Again I hate this feeling. Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-55637820493097444272012-07-05T23:10:00.001-04:002012-07-05T23:10:32.750-04:00Sigh...love...So yes I was doing well until I get a phone call from the one I TRUELY love... My heart literally skips a beat and I have fallen hard all over again. I hate feeling like I'm trapped. But he is all I can think about and that's what makes it worse...wait, the book I'm reading reflexes a lot on me and I have realized that the book explains everything that I feel about this guy. What sucks...is that he won't talk to me!! Augh! I just wish I could move on. He doesn't want me....I see that, but my heart and mind won't stop! I know I will always love him, but I jut wish he would make a move or just let me know that everything is ok and that he is actually moving on...or that he's thinking of me... Sometimes, I wish I could be that girl that a guy would want. I am content on being single, but I want to have something more. I want to have a man who will actually want to be with me and isn't ashamed to show me off, who wants me with their family and them with mine. I don't want to be a secret love but apparently I am one and I have one because I can't tell a soul on who it is. His sisters are my friends and I just can't seem to tell them or ask them questions on how he's doing. I love his family just as much as I love him. <br />
That is my weakness, this guy who won't say a word to me, unless it's something simple and sweet that I say to him first. Geez...wish I didn't love so hard. Damn you love for killing me and letting me know that I love way too hard for anyone. Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-49448861930788243992012-05-23T23:45:00.001-04:002012-05-23T23:45:16.201-04:00Sad, but gladAs in my seventh point in my last post, my grandmother Wilma passed away early on Monday morning.
Now I was good and went to the viewing and funeral...but I tell you one thing I sure can lie to keep some people out of my life. Its sad to be afraid to tell people what you're really doing and then them telling the one person in your life that you don't want anything to do with. So anyway, I loved my grandmother and she was an interesting, amazing woman.
There are somethings that I don't want to remember and there are some things that I will remember. I'll remember my bear hugs that I gave her and also the ice cream sandwitches. I don't want to remember how she forgot who my sister and I were. Its hard, but I love that she is peaceful and feeling no more pain, and remembering things. We'll miss you Grandma.Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-87988673506395529802012-05-18T19:47:00.001-04:002012-05-18T19:47:47.512-04:00Acting strangelyI may be acting weird or depressed, but it's because of many reasons that I don't know if I can explain... Ok that's a lie I know what to say its just hard for me to admit it... Bare with me as you read all 7 or however many you would like to read. <br />
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The first thing is yes I'm an idiot and fell in love with someone who didn't really love me back. I am not afraid to say I'm old fashion because I am. I would like the guy to make the first move. I won't make the first move because the one time I do, I lose, but then again I've been losing both ways... So yes I'm heart broken and trying to pick up the pieces. Even though you may see a beautiful smile on my face...it's just a mask to hide what's inside. When I love I love hard.<br />
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The second thing... I really miss my dad. It's been two years and I miss him. As my family is working on putting themselves together we've been having a lot of drama... And I mean A LOT of DRAMA that's going on and of course I'm in the middle of it! I'm tired of it! When someone says "no" DEAL WITH IT!! Its done. I you think objects will bring people back then you are mistaken! I objects are just things that people throw away or don't want, but apparently when one has something that's not even theirs to have then goodness it's the start of WW 4. Seriously people yes we lost a love one in our lives but that doesn't mean to take everything that they had and try to make a memory out of it when it means nothing to you. <br />
If anyone has any respect at all it should be to the ones who lost the one man that TRUELY loved them and took care of them when he didn't HAVE TO! My dad didn't have to be a husband, a brother, a father, a grandfather, or an uncle but he did because he had such a big heart. He didn't care what people said because of the love that he had for us. My dad was an amazing man and I miss him so much.<br />
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Third, everyone is getting married. Now before I didn't care until everyone gets on my case about finding someone to marry. Does anyone know how hard it is to find someone who is NOT related to me?! Don't get me wrong I love my family, but not enough to marry them like WV people. That's just wrong! Sorry WV people but you know the stories and jokes and they are somewhat true. Anyway, when the right love comes around I pray that God will give me clear eyes to see him in my life ready to live this theatre geek, who loved to travel and wouldn't mind my crazy music.<br />
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Fourth, I love faster than I do trusting. I only trust very few people (and one of them is the guy I love). Only those few people know my deepest secret that no one else believed me about and no I'm not writing it on here... I'm planning on writing a book and hopefully publishing it and the money will go to the Joyful Heart Foundation. <br />
Sugarland sang it best, "Slow to trust but I'm quick to love. I work too hard and I give too much. I'm not sayin I'm perfect, but I promise I'm worth it."<br />
Trusting people is very difficult for me no matter what people see, I don't trust easily, but to love is very simple for me to do. I just won't tell you because I don't like to abuse the word "love", it's such a powerful word and it is a promise when I tell you that "I love you".<br />
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Fifth, I'm trying to be a better friend to my friends. I haven't been a great friend and it doesn't help that I live in the south side area when most of my friends are in the mechanicsville area. I can drive so I can easily come over and hang out its not a big deal. Been driving from Chester to mechanicsville all my life you really think it bothers me to drive to you? Nope. <br />
I'm not the type of person to invite myself over and hang out with them. If I do it's only to drop off a gift and them letting them know that I did it and didn't want to bother them. I love my friends and I remember things like their birthdays or what they like. If I forget a birthday then I feel horrible and try to figure out a way to let them know I was thinking about them. <br />
So as I act weird, I'm just trying to be a better friend especially to the ones that have either inspired me to be a better person or they are just an awesome friend and I miss having them in my life. Granted we might have grown apart, but I still want them in my life in some shape or form. <br />
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Sixth... I write A LOT!! And it is my outlet on life and my imagination. I love my theatre work and Disney. I love traveling and taking pictures...these things are who I am. I am quiet, but I have opened up a lot from where I have been before (thank you pen and paper). I am proud that I've been doing things that I would never do. I don't stand up for myself and when I do people are either shocked or proud. I tend to push people away and some know I'm good at it, but I have been doing better at keeping people close. <br />
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Seventh, my grandmother has the disease that I can't spell but can say, the one that forgets everything. Yep that one! Not my grandma Rose, but my grandma Wilma has it. I just need to say that I'm a horrible granddaughter because I don't go to see her. I love her but I can't see her the way she is. I don't have the strength to see her like that. The last time I did see her it was her birthday about four years ago with Amber and Pete. She was good and now things are worse...and I'm still scared to see her. She won't remember me...if I do go see her... the thing that you don't know is that I have to be on my guard to see people and now wherever I go in Chester. When people say forgive and forget...I can't forgive someone who taught me to be a heartbreaking person who breaks up family because one person wasn't good enough for them and to get people to trust them when they shouldn't be trusted... I shouldn't have to live in fear! But I do, I'm afraid to be alone and to end up like my grandma Wilma. I have faith that I will be a better person... But right now I'm still learning. <br />
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So if you think I'm acting strangely or anything like that I hope you understand by reading this. Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-79115623954522399002012-04-13T23:12:00.001-04:002012-04-13T23:12:49.022-04:00Angry meSo what of I got fired because of a person who really can't do their job and always looks to me for their work? <br />
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Would I be happy or would I be pleased? Screw that I would be pleased! At least the truth is out there because I'm tired of holding every little thing in. It's not fair for me to not being able to vent and I'm not good with words as it is and I don't have someone in my life who would listen to me. <br />
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Don't get me wrong I'm grateful for the days off for the things I am ACTUALLy good and what I'm supposed to be doing. I know that leaving Fl was probably a mistake, but I did the right thing by helping mom. The problem is the fact that I stopped believing in myself once my dad died. <br />
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I stopped doing what I'm doing because I lost faith in more ways than one. It doesn't help working at a place where I feel like I'm lost all together <br />
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So I must be angry. I must be someone that can't keep calm or anything like that...I must be the person to fire. Since on paper I can write daggers but in person I turn into a small bug that can be stomped on. So yeah I need to write.Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-76119461750162028512012-02-22T11:48:00.001-05:002012-02-22T11:48:59.281-05:00ChillEvery time I'm relaxed <br />
And in my own world<br />
I see a message from you<br />
And a a chill <br />
Comes over me<br />
I shiver for hours <br />
I can't control the cold<br />
That comes over me<br />
I just become freezing cold<br />
I can't seem to get warm again <br />
No blanket<br />
No jacket can keep me warm <br />
Nothing <br />
I stay cold<br />
I wish I could be ok<br />
But every time <br />
You send me a message <br />
I become cold<br />
And I shiver <br />
Throughout the night and dayWicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-33638475119719692652012-02-04T09:47:00.001-05:002012-02-04T09:47:45.144-05:00Stupid girlWhy do you let your heart <br />
Give so much?<br />
Why do you even try?<br />
Once was enough<br />
Now twice<br />
Get over it, babe<br />
If he's not willing to fight <br />
Why should you?<br />
Obviously you're too good for him<br />
If you weren't then you'd be <br />
Right by his side <br />
You knew when he texted you again<br />
You would let your heart<br />
Take control<br />
Why did you even try?<br />
Hoping something will change?<br />
Hoping he'll actually be a man<br />
And step up to the plate?<br />
He's not worth it <br />
If he's not going to try<br />
No girl should be kept a secret<br />
I know you love him still <br />
But this time...<br />
You need to let him go<br />
Don't be a stupid girl <br />
And let him walk all over you<br />
Be proud of the fact <br />
That he missed his chance <br />
And be patient for the one <br />
That's willing to be by your side <br />
Who will take you out<br />
Who isn't afraid of your past<br />
And the baggage that you put on the table <br />
Please don't be that stupid girl <br />
That I know you'll become again <br />
As soon as he texts you <br />
Or when you see him againWicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-88425353757464253192012-02-02T12:07:00.001-05:002012-02-02T12:07:24.839-05:00What to do?Is it bad to love someone who doesn't really want to be loved by you? Stupid question or odd question I know. But somehow I have liked this guy for awhile now...and he keeps saying he's not ready to be in a relationship, now I can understand that but wouldn't it be better if we hung out with friends so we could become better friends and when he's ready he'll be ready? I don't know... I'm such a girl.... <br />
I just don't want to be thrown away like I have been before... Sometimes I wonder if it's even worth the hurt to let him in... Oh wait too late the idiot in myself already did.Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-85443250503004251842012-01-24T22:34:00.001-05:002012-01-24T22:34:33.227-05:00ProblemsSometimes I wonder if things will go right. I mean I know that I'm a sinner and I have trust issues but... Is it bad to want someone who will take your issues and every problem you have from the past away? <br />
I have a problem then... My problem is that I want a particular person and we're talking...but I don't think he wants me like I want him. I know I'm a hopeless romantic. I have that problem in wanting love and being able to love. I trust him and he shockingly knows that but I don't think he takes it seriously. Yep....PROBLEM!!<br />
I'm at a lost...and I am a bit lost, but that's a lot to admit to people who really don't read this... Though who knows maybe I'm wrong today because of my venting to the whole world about this nothingness. <br />
Anyway, I should go and look for my card...yep another problem that I usually don't have but this time I do.<br />
Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-34900247742533051642012-01-19T22:56:00.001-05:002012-01-19T22:56:08.968-05:00REALIZATION!!!Holy crap!! I just realized that I'm just second best...why did this realization just hit? Well, probably because I suggested something to a guy that I've been talking to as in hanging out...and he turned me down...but this happens a lot. Sometimes I would like to be the girl that a guy can go to and ask out and be able to go out and hang out with friends or family. <br />
I'm just a bloody hopeless romantic I guess...Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-39700099344158223182012-01-18T15:56:00.001-05:002012-01-18T15:56:59.434-05:00Sleep deprivedOk so, who knew someone could wake up smiling and have a great day...until night falls and they couldn't sleep. Then the next day is an ok day not great but good enough....<br />
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Well, that was me waking up with a smile on my face and then today having an ok day. I couldn't sleep because I was thinking. About what? Well about a guy which is never a good thing but at the same time it is... Sometimes you just want to sleep and that's what I wanted to do, but I hacks him in my head. That never helps. Sooner or later I will be able to say that "I'm taken sorry boys- you had your chance." That's what I'm going to say one of these days...<br />
Anyway, just needed to vent a bit... Have a good day.<br />
Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-70009579505786891252012-01-04T22:32:00.002-05:002012-01-04T22:38:03.656-05:00Happy New Year!Yes I'm 4 days late but I've been working a lot...yeah nothing new about that...but you also know that that means no creativity! NO!!! <br /><br />I need to write something. I need to make something creative on here...or get some inspriation from someone or something...I don't know what to do anymore. Well, I must go and either figure out how much I need to change each story that I've written.<br /><br />Have a good month...hopefully I'll be back before Feb.Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-50407230668879716172011-12-01T11:44:00.002-05:002011-12-01T11:50:19.531-05:00Welcome to DecemberWell let's see its Christmas Time!!! And its another year without my dad and it kills me inside but I keep going. My dad wouldn't have wanted it any other way. The problem with me keep going...is that I'm still where I have started. I'm in Va working and not really living the life that was intended for me or is this the life that is intended for me? Either way, I don't know what to do. <br /><br />I have some thoughts going through my head but I don't have a clue on what to do. I know there are things that I would like to do with my life but haven't started anything. Only ideas pop into my head and then they go away because people in my life I know damage the dreams or I do it myself. Its simple thing to do. I've done it plenty of times. <br /><br />Well what can I say? I don't have a poem for you or anything...I swear being an adult kind of sucks because I'm always working! lol! anyway, hope you have a good December.Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9022611091804836388.post-30144024732929344122011-11-09T22:00:00.002-05:002012-04-29T21:57:13.572-04:00Its November!!Yep another thing to work on...oh let's see I've been working! that's all...48 hours a week and then church all day Sunday...so...I work all the time. No time to write or to hang out...at least a lot. I don't like being an adult...its hard. <br /><br />LOL! yeah I said it! Anyway, as I figure out what I should do about this lovely thing called writing I've been doing...and look over the possiblities to publish anything...we'll see. Have a good night! Wicked Shannon Mariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11246084384933857659noreply@blogger.com0