Sunday, June 26, 2011

Hold On Tight

Hold on tight
Don't let go
Of what I've given
To you
Hold on tight
To me
And know I
Won't be going
Anywhere
I'm with you
Just hold on tight
Don't let go
I know that you're hurting
And I know that
You're scared
But don't worry about a thing
I'm here
And hold on tight
To me
I won't let go
I never had
And I never will
I've got you
Just hold on tight
To me

Friday, June 24, 2011

ok...random thoughts...

So I'm busy tryingto keep up with my friends and whatnot...then I stopped talking to this one friend because we weren't acting like friends. We were acting more than friends and truthfully I did like it but it wasn't healthy for me. Anyway, so he agreed to keep it as friends...(awkward story along with that)...I started thinking about another friend of mine and how I missed seeing him around so I texted him and told him to have a good day even though about 6 months ago he told me to F-off. So I"m confused about that whole thing....

So now he's being nice and doing what he did before...I don't have time for games people! I want something real! I want something that God wants me to have... It sounds odd..though I've had my ups and downs with God lately...Its just been rough...and I haven't been the best daughter of Christ...I don't think I'll ever be...but I have faith that God will take care of me. I know that when I run away He never leaves...He waits for me to turn around and run into His arms...and He knows I'm still working on it.

I just hope that I do better...as a person for people to see...

Yeah my brain is on overload right now...I need my sleep....

Saturday, June 18, 2011

De'javu

I've seen you before
And you don't even know me
Though I've had this conversation before
And we haven't even met yet
How does this happen?
I don't understand

Its de'javu  all over again
It's driving me up the wall
Cause we've never met before
And you're standing there
Looking so familiar to me
Its the de'javu that's making me crazy about you

This is so crazy 
Seeing you
Figuring out how we met
But you don't seem to realize 
That I have 

The de'javu all over again
It's driving me up the wall
Cause we've never met before
And you're standing there
Looking so familiar to me
Its the de'javu that's making me crazy about you

If I only knew how this started
But somehow I have mixed feelings about this 
I hate having this de'javu
And then at the same time 
I'm glad that I've met you

Because this de'javu
It's driving me up the wall
Cause we've never met before
And you're standing there
Looking so familiar to me
Its the de'javu that's making me crazy about you

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Invisible

Why is it 
So hard to see me
You see right through me 
You can't see
The tears that
Form in my eyes
The arms around me
To shield the hurt
That's been given
The hand that pushed
The tears from my face
The sway of me 
Shifting from one foot to another
Why is it 
So hard to see me
In pain
As I stand right in front of you

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Where I'd I go?

Where did I go? 
I was right there 
Beside you
But I took a wrong turn 
How did I get where I am? 
I know you're there
But I didn't see you
I went my own way
I love you and hated you
At the same time
Because things 
Just wasn't right
Here on earth in my "world"
When it should have been 
Just love in your world
I haven't been myself
I've been scared
And lost 
And I'm trying 
To get back to you
But I fear that 
I'll lose my way
I miss the way things were
I miss how I felt 
When in high school 
It was easier
Because I had faith 
Like a child 
I don't know 
Where it went
I need to get back to you
That's what I need to do
Getting back to you
Will be hard
And I need to do it right

Thursday, June 9, 2011

3 posts in one day?

Poem time! And it's 11:56

Wash away
Everything I've done
Forgive me 
As you know 
I will disobey you
I was one of your 
Good daughters
I have flaws 
You know that
But I should 
Know better than 
What I'm doing
It's scary
How much I've changed
I am horrible 
Though you love me 
Jut the same 
I keep coming back 
For your forgiveness 
And you give it willingly
And you wash away
Everything that I've done
You love me though 
I feel like 
I'm slipping away

Psalm 27

video

Psalm 27

Of David.

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked advance against me
to devour[a] me,
it is my enemies and my foes
who will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then I will be confident.

4 One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent
and set me high upon a rock.

6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his sacred tent I will sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.

7 Hear my voice when I call, LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, “Seek his face!”
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.

13 I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.

Washed Away

Wash away
Everything I've done
Forgive me 
As you know 
I will disobey you
I was one of your 
Good daughters
I have flaws 
You know that
But I should 
Know better than 
What I'm doing
It's scary
How much I've changed
I am horrible 
Though you love me 
Jut the same 
I keep coming back 
For your forgiveness 
And you give it willingly
And you wash away
Everything that I've done
You love me though 
I feel like 
I'm slipping away

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Worry

Time is speeding by
And I'm starting
To forget how you laugh
I'm forgetting how you call my name
When you need me
I'm forgetting how your hand
Feels when I grab it
I'll be a year
And you're still gone
Because you're gone
I worry more about mom
Though I'm with her all the time
I still worry
Apparently I will always worry
Because I have no idea
What will happen when
I lose mom like I lost you
I used to not worry and live
Like Christ wants me to...
But sadly I still worry
I have to give it up
The worry
And fear...
That's what's holding me back
Holding me back from everything...
I miss you, dad...
I know you're watching over mom and me
But its not the same
Without you here on earth...