Problems

Sometimes I wonder if things will go right. I mean I know that I'm a sinner and I have trust issues but... Is it bad to want someone who will take your issues and every problem you have from the past away?
I have a problem then... My problem is that I want a particular person and we're talking...but I don't think he wants me like I want him. I know I'm a hopeless romantic. I have that problem in wanting love and being able to love. I trust him and he shockingly knows that but I don't think he takes it seriously. Yep....PROBLEM!!
I'm at a lost...and I am a bit lost, but that's a lot to admit to people who really don't read this... Though who knows maybe I'm wrong today because of my venting to the whole world about this nothingness.
Anyway, I should go and look for my card...yep another problem that I usually don't have but this time I do.

REALIZATION!!!

Holy crap!! I just realized that I'm just second best...why did this realization just hit? Well, probably because I suggested something to a guy that I've been talking to as in hanging out...and he turned me down...but this happens a lot. Sometimes I would like to be the girl that a guy can go to and ask out and be able to go out and hang out with friends or family.
I'm just a bloody hopeless romantic I guess...

Sleep deprived

Ok so, who knew someone could wake up smiling and have a great day...until night falls and they couldn't sleep. Then the next day is an ok day not great but good enough....

Well, that was me waking up with a smile on my face and then today having an ok day. I couldn't sleep because I was thinking. About what? Well about a guy which is never a good thing but at the same time it is... Sometimes you just want to sleep and that's what I wanted to do, but I hacks him in my head. That never helps. Sooner or later I will be able to say that "I'm taken sorry boys- you had your chance." That's what I'm going to say one of these days...
Anyway, just needed to vent a bit... Have a good day.

Happy New Year!

Yes I'm 4 days late but I've been working a lot...yeah nothing new about that...but you also know that that means no creativity! NO!!!

I need to write something. I need to make something creative on here...or get some inspriation from someone or something...I don't know what to do anymore. Well, I must go and either figure out how much I need to change each story that I've written.

Have a good month...hopefully I'll be back before Feb.

Welcome to December

Well let's see its Christmas Time!!! And its another year without my dad and it kills me inside but I keep going. My dad wouldn't have wanted it any other way. The problem with me keep going...is that I'm still where I have started. I'm in Va working and not really living the life that was intended for me or is this the life that is intended for me? Either way, I don't know what to do.

I have some thoughts going through my head but I don't have a clue on what to do. I know there are things that I would like to do with my life but haven't started anything. Only ideas pop into my head and then they go away because people in my life I know damage the dreams or I do it myself. Its simple thing to do. I've done it plenty of times.

Well what can I say? I don't have a poem for you or anything...I swear being an adult kind of sucks because I'm always working! lol! anyway, hope you have a good December.

Its November!!

Yep another thing to work on...oh let's see I've been working! that's all...48 hours a week and then church all day Sunday...so...I work all the time. No time to write or to hang out...at least a lot. I don't like being an adult...its hard.

LOL! yeah I said it! Anyway, as I figure out what I should do about this lovely thing called writing I've been doing...and look over the possiblities to publish anything...we'll see. Have a good night!

Random update.

Well again been busy and shockingly...haven't been able to write...well, I'm in Florida right now so I'm a bit happy, but sadly that happiness will end once I get back to Virginia. Anyway, I gotta figure out what I'm actually doing and might check out this publishing site. Hopefully something will work out, who knows.

Anyway, I must go and figure out what to actually do at this time. =)
Keep Smiling and I'll hopefully be back soon.