Its November!!

Yep another thing to work on...oh let's see I've been working! that's all...48 hours a week and then church all day Sunday...so...I work all the time. No time to write or to hang out...at least a lot. I don't like being an adult...its hard.

LOL! yeah I said it! Anyway, as I figure out what I should do about this lovely thing called writing I've been doing...and look over the possiblities to publish anything...we'll see. Have a good night!

Random update.

Well again been busy and shockingly...haven't been able to write...well, I'm in Florida right now so I'm a bit happy, but sadly that happiness will end once I get back to Virginia. Anyway, I gotta figure out what I'm actually doing and might check out this publishing site. Hopefully something will work out, who knows.

Anyway, I must go and figure out what to actually do at this time. =)
Keep Smiling and I'll hopefully be back soon.

busy? really that's nothing new!

ok so the title says it all, and its sadly true.

been too busy to write or think but i have been talking to one of my friends and debating on actually publishing my work...the question is when and who would do it! that's just crazy too...i'm always busy and wish i can do this for real.

well, i guess that's all the update i have for now...other than working on Scrooge at church and always at work is just me being busy...oh what fun.

Another Sunday

Tomorrow is only another Sunday 
And it will begin 
The week of searching 
Which never ends well
Another week of not 
Seeing you seated
In your spot
Another week of 
Not being a friend
Just a distant memory
Which is what it's 
Turning out to be 
So only dreams will remain 
Or random texting of 
How we should meet
And it's the only thing 
That keeps somewhat 
Of a relationship
Who knows where things lead
Maybe it wasn't meant to be
Anything more than 
Just a friendship
But still on Sunday
I seek for you 
And you won't be there 
Because you have a life 
Of your own 
And the only contact 
We'll have is through texting
And that doesn't help 
A relationship at all
So let the dreams
And random texting begin again
What's another week 
Without seeing you
A broken friend 
Who will just encourage you
And I'll keep my distance 
That's all that I'll do
Keep bugging you with quotes 
And stay in the back 
Of the gym seeking 
For a friendship that won't happen
Because I push too hard for it 
And then I'll push it away
Because that's what I do...
Let Sunday come 
Another week will start
With work being in the way
And another nights alone for me
As my world crumbles 
For something that's 
Not going to happen

Always Alone?

I am always by myself so I am a loner...but I'm never alone, though I feel extremely alone. I don't have to go out, but it's nice every now and then I would like to go out with my friends that I don't see often. When I was going out, hanging with a friend of mine, but I felt like e was being hidden from out mutual friends... So what did I do??? I stopped hanging out with him alone. We acted like a couple when we weren't and that ended the going out, hanging out, or whatever...

You're probably thinking, "What? Shannon Marie isn't going out?! She's a theatre person, they go out all the time, what's wrong?"
That might be stereotyping, but even when was working in the theatre, I didn't go out... I just started going out after shows during 'Love Kills'. I have never been a party person...no matter what I do...I'll be a loner. People will say that I can change... You're right I COULD change, but it will be me. I am who I am. I am truthfully shy, a hard worker, will listen to your problems and try to put a smile on your face while encouraging you and letting you know everything will be ok and that you're loved. 

What can I say? That's who I am... Painfully shy until I let someone in and become a big goofball to make people laugh. 

Who’s Your Real Prayer Partner?

Go away
You were never
A part of me
You made me
The way I am
What’s that?
You may ask
Let’s see
I’m scared
To love someone
I’m scared
To trust someone
Because of you
I can’t let the one guy
Who is willing
To deal with me
To put up
With all my drama
In my life
Because of you
I can’t trust
The one person
Who can make me
Feel like I’m
Meant to be with him
Because of you
I fear that
When I’m over
The trusting and marry
That he’ll leave me
For his “prayer partner”
But I have to
Remember that
He’s NOT YOU
And NEITHER AM I
Just do me a favor
Stay away from me
Just because
You’re half my DNA
Doesn’t mean that
You’re a part of me
Have fun with
Your next sucker
Who is your
“Prayer partner”


This doesn't mean that pryaer partners are bad, they are fine...as long as you don't cheat on your wife or husband with them.

titles?

ok some of these will not have titles...and they might never have titles...just giving the heads up...
Oh and in this one...you might not like me for because...I put the f-bomb in it...so i'll secer it...but you know its there..


Why do you have to lie?
If you don’t
Want to talk
Just say so…
But don’t lie
To me
I’m sorry
That I worry about you
I’m sorry
That I am too f-ing loyal
I can’t help that
I care about you
If you don’t want me
To care about you
Then tell me
I’ll do my best
To stop caring
But I can’t make
A promise that
I know in my heart
That I can’t keep