Time to decide on life

Well, at the moment I'm working in Disney for this month and then going back to Virginia to go and work on RENT at the Firehouse Theatre. I love what I do but I need to come to realization that I can't stay with my parents forever but at the same time...I still need them.

Why is this hard? Because I'm a chicken and I don't know what I want but I do know one thing...I want to move. I love my family and friends back in VA, but when I travel the world or even the states, I'm happy. Not many people can understand that, but its who I am. If a great guy comes into my life and keeps me in one place and we have our life together than that's what it will be.

I'm almost ready for the world...but is the world ready for me?

A New Year has begun!

Well, working at Disney has been a blessing for me and I'm sad to say that I'm not there right now. I found out some bad news and I'm not awllod to say anything since I am still a Cast Member and I know better.

Anyway, being at home has been BORING!!! I have no idea what to do anymore. Usually during the day I'm working doing my thing there and then all of a sudden...nothing. but you know that's life...right? So, I've been working on some stories and I haven't finished one...

I miss working, I miss seeing my new family...I miss a lot of things... I feel like I'm going to be lost for awhile. So who know's what might happen. I just wish that I could be more like other people, more out spoken and comfortable with myself to speak to people or get my ideas out there or to write a book or something...I don't know. Hopefully, things will work out, but I have no idea. Anyway, things will get better... Trust in the Lord Always and that's what I need to do!

I think I got you beat...yeah...yeah..yeah....

Ok not really I just thought I'd write that as a title on here. hehehehe. Anyway, I want to go to NYC to see Shrek the musical and Next to Normal. I'm a geek who wants to travel more and fall in love with someone who will be willing to do the same with me. I'm a theatre person who has trouble finding love in the right places. I am the one who doesn't trust as easily like everyone thinks I am. I'm on my guard all the time and very rarely let it down.

How do I get from NYC to having my guard down? Well, part of going to NYC is bringing my guard down and falling in love. I am a chicken....that's about it. I have been trying to find my way to love someone....and truthfully....its not really working. I do like this guy and want to have somewhat a relationship but I'm not quite sure if he wants one with me. I just don't know anymore.

I don't know why I'm actually writing on here right now...probably because I know this won't be posted on facebook. Thank you Blogger! There are just somethings that people shouldn't read... I do love my friends and family but this isn't for them. This is for Wicked Shannon (me, duh) to vent a little about life and hopefully will tell stories about her life that not many people didn't know about me. Anyway I should go now...

Sleepless nights....

Well, I haven't been sleeping well and it will soon become a story. Just like most of the stories that come and go in my head. The problem with me is that...a guy actually said that he liked me and now won't talk to me. This happened before....and I'm fustrated. I haven't been sleeping well at all and this is bugging me.
I don't know what I'm doing or what I'm doing wrong. I guess when it comes right down to it...I'm going to be the lonely one. I can learn to love but not when someone shuts me out before I get a chance to even think things through...
Life is never easy I know that, but you know what, I'm tired of being who I am. Sometimes, I wish I could be someone else, but God made me the way I am for a reason and I have to figure out that reason. If I don't I'll never know what it will be like to love or anything like that. Having sleepless nights isn't worth the fight sometimes.

Its going to be ok....

Adam is leaving tomorrow and now I have no one to actually mess up their costume...because his was an easy fix that it wouldn't matter. Another dancer is leaving as well...its getting more confusing than ever around here.Anyway, other than that life is life. I have to deal with random people as they get through life and how things work...but that's how it is in Disney.

Gotta love it.

Surrounded by idots....~Scar from Lion King

don't get me wrong or anything i love the people that i'm with....but the fact of the matter is that i can't think and i can't with people in the room. i'm working on a story...play...i'm writing and i can't think. its dangerous but at the same time...its a good thing that i can't think, but if i want to get a story done then i will never be done.

i need sleep too...i'm out of it and i just need to write as much as i can...ok i'm going to try to get through this as they talk.

Long time no posting....scary

Well, let's see the last time I wrote was when I was in London....or Scotland...or in Virginia at school. Something to that effect. Anyway, now you're looking at a Cast Member at Disney World. No I can not give you free tickets even if you asked. Anyway, I've been working hard on a lot of things down here. I work in costuming at Hollywood Stuidos. Its been a blast. I work at Beauty and the Beast, Block Party Bash (the parade), Lights! Motor! Action! Extreme Stunt Show, and will be training at High School Musical 3.

Its been a great adventure for me and I will stay here until January 2, 2010. I'm loving it but the thing is that I need to plan a trip home for a little bit. I've been here since January 28, 2009. But its been awesome! I've met wonderful people and I work with amazing people who are willing to help me succeed, which is amazing!

I should go ahead and go now. I have to be ready for another day down here and it should be FUN!